Farenheit 9/11

Just stop doing whatever you're doing and GO SEE FAHRENHEIT 9/11...that's all i have to say. MICHAEL MOORE did it again...another BRILLIANT and SIGNIFICANT film.

In terms of your job...Can you ever get used to being 'sick'?

I called in sick today. Am i really sick? Yes and no. I'm not literally sick, but i am very sick when it comes to my job. I feel completely unhappy when i wake up in the morning and have to go do something i hate. It puts me down, i have no energy when i come back home. Yes, you could say 'why don't you get another job?'. Thing is right now i have no option due to my status in this country. And yes, when all this changes, i will. But for now, i have no options. It's this or nothinbg, and believe me i need the money.

I couldn't help but wonder how many people feel the same way about their jobs. And what happens when you have to do something you don't like for the rest of your life? I cannot imagine waking up in the morning for the rest of my life and going to do something i'm not passionate for. But what if you have no choice, what if you need the money? And what if earlier in your life you made plans about your future which did not turn out the way you wanted. Me, for instance. I cannot imagine myself doing anything else than films. That is my passion, it is what makes me click in the morning and something i think about as often as i think about the weekend (and believe me that is a lot). But let's say none of this becomes real? Let's say something prevents me from achieving my goals. What happens then? Yes, many people didn't exactly achieve their goals in terms of career and they still found a good job and most importantly - that makes them happy. But that is never certain. Can we still be hapy doing something we don't like? And in terms of your job...can you ever get used to being 'sick'?

One of the things that leads me to think about that, is the people at my workplace. Actually one in particular. He's in his forties and believe me he doesn't look happy when he's in there. But he has a family to support and has no choice (since it is good pay and anywhere else he would not as much money). Is he completely happy? Or does he even think about it, since it's not an option for him? I wonder if he got used to it.

I guess in the end although some of us don't achieve their dream careers what is really important is that we are happy doing whatever we're doing. Yes, we should do EVERYTHING we can to achieve our dream careers, but if something prevent us from doing so, plan B doesn't look that bad after all, giving that we don't have to call in 'sick'.

Once again...DC makeover

I'm still not satisfied with the current design of this blog and i'm now working on a new one which should be up in a few days. No, i have no idea what i'm doing or what i want. Check back soon :|

Why do some of us still believe he's simply gonna fall from the sky?

Yesterday i went to an amusement park here in Montreal and in the line for the splash i saw a guy who immediately fascinated me. After many exchange of glances, my friend told me that i should just go talk to him. I laughed out loud (perhaps too loud so much that him and five or six asian girls were staring) and soon panicked. Me? Go up and talk to him? What a foolish idea, how would i ever do that without being under the influence of alcohol or some kind of potion that made me not act like my normal self? My shy reaction towards the guy made me wonder. Why can't girls, in most cases, just go up to a guy and ask for his number? Why do still wait for the guy to come up to us? Is it about confidence? Fear of rejection? And if it is how are we ever gonna know that we click or not? Many girls only talk to guys, in a club, or bar or at any given place if they talk to them first. But aren't we missing out? Why do some of us still believe he's simply gonna fall from the sky?

I honestly can't remember even one time when i went up to a guy before he came up to me. Even in a bar or club if you will where people magically introduce a new side of themselves. Of course, there's always the glances which help to encourage him to come talk to you but is that enough? What if he doesn't? Haven't we, then, missed an opportunity to meet someone? Yes, i believe so, but many girls, still see the first step as being the guys' responsability. Call it double standard. I know it sounds cliche, but isn't it true that when a guy goes up to a girl in a bar (and again, at any given place) he has confidence. But if a girl decides to take the first step, is she still "easy"? I guess many girls (including myself) are afraid of that, then they decide to wait. Even though sometimes it seems obvious that both parties are attracted to each other. But i'm starting to think that this is one of the silliest things when it comes to flirtation. Why is it that the guy has to start it? Can't we just have the same opportunities and not being seen as "easy" or sometimes even "desperate"? It seems to me that by leaving that to "the guys" we are more than missing opportunities, we are also showing that we still believe that just because we take the first step we are easy, which doesn't make sense at all nowadays. Honestly ladies, how many guys have you gone up to? And when you did how did you feel? Easy? I bet not, i bet it felt good, because that shows more than having confidence, it shows that you don't care if the guy judges you. And if he does, fuck him, you're gonna do what you want and get as many numbers as you godamn want. Hey that sounds nice. I guess it's time for me to stop being so judgemental on myself and just have fun. And that's what it is. I guess in the end is not about as much as being "easy", i guess in the end it all comes down to judging ourselves and missing the fun.

Remember those times when we had all the time in the world and our only worry was to pick a place to go or who to call. Those times when we didn't make as much money as we do now but still we had the best of times? Friends were around all the time and it was rare to be alone. When did it start being serious? Does it have to do with age, needs, different goals? Do we all miss that and if we do, did we know that every summer was going to, actually, not make much difference compared to the rest of the year when we are all the time busy, running around? Is this how it goes? And if it does, WHERE DID IT ALL GO? Summer is here, and everyday I find I'm wasting it all away, I work like mad come home and I'm dead tired. And believe me that's not what I planned at all for my summer. Actually, before summer comes, last month of school, I was all excited, planning to do this and that and I haven't done any of those things yet simply because I don't have any time. My summer is like any month of the year, busy. So, as we get older, I imagine, summer becomes meaningless, it is just another season, another three months. Besides, it became so hard to get all your friends together, they all have their lives and little time to simply "hang out". And it is this "hanging out" thing that I'm talking about. There's no "hanging out" anymore. Sure, when we did hang out we didn't make as much money as now because we worked less hours or didn't have jobs, but does all this money compensate the time that flies? We are twenty only once in our lives so are we wasting our time by assuming new responsibilities in a time when it should be fun? Or the whole "working like mad and making mad money" compensate the fun we are not having? I love the money that I make, but at the same time I get so tired and at night, although I'm dead tired I still call my friends and want to hang out, I still stay up till late to compensate for the the time I sometimes think I'm wasting and yes, I look forward Fridays as never before and count the days till the weekend because that is the only time I have to live the summer. In the end, can we have both fun and responsibilities? And if so, can we still enjoy our summers like we did three or four years ago?